Since that Day, I will remember
Every Morning. I open my eyes with a tummy ache.
My heart feels empty,it doesn’t beat,it hurts really.
My brain just wandering, it freezes into you.
Morning sickness and it’s so uncomfy.
Time oh time, I know it’ll heals..
Tears oh tears, I know they’ll dry..
Wounds oh wounds, I know it’ll stop to bleed..
You oh you, I know You’ll be okay..
My oh my, I know I’ll win and takes it all.
-Inez 09/25/2008
Forever will be
Crush on Away
Up on the heart
Walk out Away
Keep distance all apart
I’m a lover not a fighter
Its off for good
its end for dignity, and
In the end for happiness
satisfaction in a hand
Sea Shell on a sea Shore
Bore my wisdom, bore my patience
No No No No
My life will still go on
My love will grow all along
For who one loving me
For who the greatest fan of me
Forever will be………
Possibly????????????
By: Me…..Again…..
I’ll Be
by: Edwin McCain
The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath.
And emeralds from mountains thrust toward the sky
Never revealing their depth.
Tell me that we belong together,
Dress it up with the trappings of love.
I’ll be captivated,
I’ll hang from your lips,
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above.
[Chorus:]
I’ll be your crying shoulder,
I’ll be love’s suicide
I’ll be better when I’m older,
I’ll be the greatest fan of your life.
And rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed.
You’re my survival, you’re my living proof.
My love is alive — not dead.
Tell me that we belong together.
Dress it up with the trappings of love.
I’ll be captivated,
I’ll hang from your lips,
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
[Chorus]
And I’ve dropped out, I’ve burned up, I’ve fought my way back from the dead.
I’ve tuned in, turned on, remembered the things that you said
[Chorus:]
I’ll be your crying shoulder,
I’ll be love’s suicide
I’ll be better when I’m older,
I’ll be the greatest fan of your…
I’ll be your crying shoulder,
I’ll be love’s suicide
I’ll be better when I’m older,
I’ll be the greatest fan of your life.
The greatest fan of your life.
…greatest fan of your life.
There was a time in my life..
Long Long time ago..
There was a history
Was only in my mind
Was never spilled out
Was never told
Was never forgot
Was never escape
Because it is mine…
There was History in my life
That made me to be me these day
Long long time ago..
I waited for You every night
Before I went to sleep
I pray to God
I dreamt about it all night
I even see You when I was close my eyes
I asked why you leave me alone?
And yeah,..You never’ve came.
Until now, time goes by
I’m still waiting…….
I am waiting for you to come
Once You came, You broke my heart…again and again
Then I have to lost You again ,twice, and third times
Once my wings just broken and I tried so hard to glued it up
I want to be me again
God love me, he gave me strength
Then several times You come by to say Hi in a first place
But, In the end I am still ending up broken heart,
waiting and waiting….
Until Today,
I worked so hard to forgot and just keep walking
But something behind me keep calling my name
For me to wait.. for You again….
Hey You!
Could you please help me and let me Go?
I want to make my life goes on..
The Bottom Line Life is not completely fair or equal. Don’t get bogged down in nickels and dimes. In Detail If you spend too much time thinking about how to make everything equal and fair between you and your friends, you will create way too much work for yourself. Life just isn’t fair all the time, as difficult as that may be for you to acknowledge. It’s a messy affair full of selfishness and selflessness. Look at the big picture. As long as you think things are generally equitable, don’t worry. You mustn’t get bogged down in counting nickels and dimes.
That is what my horoscope today in friendster. Well, honestly I do believe in a lot of superstitious stuffs. Not because I don’t believe in God and all of His creation, it’s just felt nice to have an awareness of the future.
I asked my sister last week, why life doesn’t fair enough for me. You know how in the movie, the bad guys always becoming the loser, but I know it was different in the real life, sometimes when we’re just do all of the sacrifices it doesn’t pay off the way we want it. I was so tired in the play, and it just doesn’t feel good to see other people got lucky enough to get happiness that easy without pain and gain. I felt that the world just envy me with all of the problems I have got in my life.
Well, my sister’s answer was amazed me, to me she grew up a lot more mature even she’s the one who can tell me what to do now! “ It’s just the chapter of your life, maybe you are still in a chapter five before you can get your happiness in chapter 20 or maybe in chapter 80” she thinks that life is like a novel, you keep adding it until it says “the end” in the end. You choose your option of life in the novel but you will never be able to change the script and the destiny of yourself. I know all of this are bring myself together, I become stronger and I also believe that everything happened in life was just a lecture to be learned.
Well, I just hope and pray that everything will come in places. I believe God will never give us something impossible, everything is possible in His name and whatever come around I believe that’s the next step where I’m going to be……
x Kenapa yah? Kenapa Hidup itu Singkat? Hehehehe pertanyaan bodoh yah?
Baru ajah kemaren gue ngerasa lulus smu..skg gue harus ngehadapin hal baru yang beda banget…dimana gue harus bisa berusaha sendiri…tanpa bantuan dr org lain..
Gue kepengen nulis blog ini..gara2x keadaan Pa Manto..Guru Agama gue di SMu dulu..Masi inget banget beliau dulu rajin banget ngajar….walau waktu itu Pa Manto duduknya di kursi roda..Hari ini gue denger cerita dari temen2x Sanur di Indo…mereka bilang keadaan beliau memburuk bahkan untuk Napas ajah harus cari posisi yg tepat padahal udah pake tabung O2. Disini gue cuman bisa berdoa ajah yah buat Pa Manto semoga selalu diberi kesabaran dalam menghadapi penyakitnya… Semoga Pa Manto selalu semangat yah!!
Dalam Hidup..gue ngerasain yah selalu jatuh dan bangun.. Baru seneng bentar eeee dahhh ada kejadian yang buat kita down lagi..masalah ga pernah ada kelarnya! Tapi gue ngerasa sih dalam diri gue sendiri ..dimana gue jatuh dan sedih selalu ada jalan keluarnya dan selama ini jalannya lebih enak dr yang pernah gue bayangin. Gue percaya Tuhan pasti punya rencananya sendiri dan biasanya dan harusnya rencannyaa indah 
iya ga sichhhhh???
Buat temen2x yang lagi sedih… atau lagi sakitt atau lagi bete atau lagi down atau lagi broken heart SEMANGAT Lha!! hehhee kalo gue bisa kalian juga bisa yah..!! Just believe it that in front of you there are still always hope en semuanya pasti lebih indah dari sebelumnya!
okok..cuman iseng ajah kepengen berbagi sama kalian
be happy always!!
cheerz,
Inez
Ku tau kita berbeda…
Tak seperti air dan api
Tak seperti gunung dan laut
Namun perbedaan itu tak berarti
Kita telah berusaha
Kita telah berkorban
Kita lewati suka duka bersama
Namun kenangan itu tak lama
Saat kita bersama kita tersenyum
Saat kita bersama kita sayang
Saat kita bersama kita lupa
Namun tak bisakah ini selamanya?
Masih adakah langit berpelangi di hatimu untukku?
Masih adakah mimpi indah malam ini untukku?
Masih adakah malaikat manis menungguku?
Namun matamu tak melihat dan tak menjawabku
Ku kan terus berlari di jalanan tak berujung
atau ku akan diam di jalanan itu
menunggu sampai aku tak usah sendiri lagi
Jawabnya hanya dalam anganku saja
- inyez -
bunga mawarnya sih indah hehehe
December 25, 2005
Selamat Hari Natal Buat Semuanya!
This Christmas are so different with my others Christmas. Too many changes happened to me in the past few months. Some were really nice and some were also not really sweet rather its bitter. But,everything that happened makes me stronger and happy.
Yesterday was Christmas eve…seperti biasanya…I went to church sama DD dan my mom…sama Ivonne, tante Linda ,Andrew, HErry dan SI wWang..Ada Vanessa juga. Suddenly on the mass..felt something so different. Hehehehe ada sesuatu yang bergejolak(heheheh keren) yah suddenly I felt something missing…….tapi gak lama sampe khotbah gue merasa…malam natal ini gue disadarin heheheheh Its all planned, its all happened for a better reason. Kata romonya "Yesus lahir lagi….Yesus selalu berjalan bersama kita …mungkin kita kehilangan orang yang kita sayangi, mungkin kita struggle untuk menjalani masa depan kita, mungkin kita tidak tau apa yang akan kita hadapi nanti, mungkin km lagi bahagia karena bertemu dengan keluarga mu yang terpisah setelah sekian lama, tapi kamu harus percaya…di kelahiran Tuhan Yesus..dia bukan hanya lahir di kandang domba tapi juga lahir dan berjalan bersama di dalam hatimu" Hehehe gubrak..kok kejadiannya sama yang gue rasain taon ini yah? Well, makannya kemaren khotbahnya ngena banget
This christmas I met someone special in my life Someone whose really important and It been years that I didnt meet him. He is getting older, getting weaker, looks so unhappy. Tapi pas kemaren ketemu I was glad I can see smile in His smile….again This CHristmas so special and fair. How amazing…
belum kelar…neh dah mau pergi entar diupdate lagi yah!:P hehehehhee
Well, Just want to Share this with everyone…Merry CHristmas everyone hopes its wonderful for all of you too….
-INEZ-
Betapa pun hampa hati yang pernah luka
Pedihnya mengisi perasaan
Sakitnya membakar jiwa
Dan akan luruh seiring kelopak cintaku
Cintaku tak setinggi langit dan seluas samudera!
Namun bila terus kau tanya aku
Ku kan jawab cinta bagaikan ilalang
Tak pernah berhenti bersemi untuk berkembang
Selalu bersahabat dan tahan terhadap badai
Selalu indah walau bermandikan debu
Dan tentunya tak akan pernah lelah menyemainya di ladang…….-by Inez-
Because I’m the only person, I will have a relation with all my life, I choose to love myself the way I’m now…To always acknowledge that I’m enough just the way I am…To Love, honour, and cherish myself…to be my own best friend..To be the person I would like to spend the rest of my life with..To always take care of myself so that I can take care of others…To always Grow, develop and share my love and life…..
From -myself-
[Inez]
